This weekend Erika and I headed down to MU to go see Deirdre for her birthday. I am really glad we did so---it felt very familiar to go see her, her family, and Phil. Also, I enjoy the town that the college is in--it may have a plethora of interesting "Miami people" but it's quaint in its own way and beautiful to me. My only wish is that we could have gone away for longer. Now we are back in Columbus and I'm taking advantage of all the stores and buildings and things to do around me but I'm wishing to be in a small town, just playing Gamecube and waiting for E to come home, possibly hanging out with friends every now and then and writing poetry that I think is getting somewhere. :)
I'm not sure about this whole art thing....I keep rethinking taking this second class because it is a LOT of money and almost as much as like a short study abroad experience or something---should I just be taking Community Ed? Am I really going to do something with this class? These are questions I ask myself but in order to find out anything you have to actually dip into things. Try them out and see if they work. Then go from there. Navigating the adult world of work, or preparing for work, is crazy to me....That's why I kind of just want to be a teacher and play with kids all day long. Okay, I KNOW it's not that simple, but I think it would bring me happiness and make me feel fulfilled at the end of the day. All this art stuff--what am I going to do with it? And politics...hm.
This semester, though, is to lay off forcing a decision or a lightbulb aha-moment, and to just be. Number one on my list besides getting to my first Design class on time is to contact that lady back at the volunteer place I want to begin at. Number two on my list is to sign up at the Y and get moving, get running again, now that I have a working music player and some motivation to get moving again. I have to keep setting goals for myself and focusing in on those goals. I think the physical movement will especially help.
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